late jan 06

I got cancer. I found out because my mum was secretly planning some ‘T memorial' award for some horse show thing and I saw it and said 'I’m not dying am I?' and then she admitted I had 2-3 months to live. So I went about trying to find the best way to tell people - I gave my sister a comic book where the character gets cancer. And I tried to figure out how I wanted to say goodbye to everybody and what I wanted to say to each person. I think it was lung cancer because I remember thinking I had given up smoking but not soon enough.