Update backlog

25/09
The queen's park crew all lived in a big old house on a huge peice of land (between gemmell's and brown's on the slope). it was a summer breeze blue skies and the grass was brown and long before making hay - it smelled sweet like hay. they were having a party in the one of the other buldings on the land for which they could do whatever they liked with. the buildings were quite modern but were sposed to be old farmhouse/barn style. i remember standing in the long grass, the breeze blowing through my hair, warm sun on my skin and smelling the sweet grass. i was thinking how sweet it was for them to get this old property for so cheap and this is what the simple life was like.

23/09
I was testing dog biscuits to make sure they were fit to eat (humans). I gave one each to grandma's two dogs (brutus and ?) and Max and another of mum and dad's dogs. They all bled to death.

22/09
parI was walking along the sea side and heard a *snap* and i turned around and a huge snake was sunning itself on the rocks. The snap was the snake slamming it's mouth shut. Then i was carrying on walking and kept stepping on little wee black and green snakes and they would bite me. Someone was telling me to be careful and I was saying "It's OK, it doesn't hurt and they're not poisonous".

I was in the gulf states with J who was wearing a keffiyeh. We were sitting on the grass, T was beside me and J was talking to a girl on the other side of me who had gone to Kuwait to ride her parent's racehorses. Then we had to get on the bus J was driving and everyone was looking forward to driving back to London because it was bank holiday monday and there was a fair in London, but lucky it was a 4 day week because the rollercoasters were looking a bit dodgy.

I was sitting on a couch with J with our backs to a gig, looking out to the hills in the dusk from an open side wall. He was saying "I don't think I want to do this much longer" and I was going "oh, noooo. Who will do it now? No one can or will!" And then he put on Cinematic Orchestra's All That You Give and I said "oooh, this song is beautiful".

I was at FKs wedding to JO from her third form class. I was wearing a pink satin petticoat with yellow lace trim. I pushed this boat out onto the lake with my hands. There were people in it. But it went too far and I fell in. I ended up water skiing (or something - playing in the water) and came out covered in mud but I remember thinking that was sweet and I'd have a shower and it would dry instantly.

I was somewhere in Europe studying (Germany?). We were looking at an old building and then sitting outside in the snow. I was trying to get one of the little books which you could stick your photo and other pictures in - it was a text book or study aid to something. It was small and paper and oblong size. I got it from off an outdoor table after sitting at some round outdoor tables with some guys wearing skiing clothes talking about the winter olympics to me. I knew nothing about what they were talking about so just smiled and laughed.

Jo was going to Melbourne and although in my dream I wasn't going, I had the feeling that I was. She bought a Melbourne guide book at the airport and also a starsign book. I was trying to find an Aquarius one but they had run out of the ones she had. It looked cool and funky. Like the Astrology Cafe website.

25/06
I was with a detective lady with brown hair. We were in a wooden house investigating claims that some girls were being abused there. There were men around and we weren't supposed to be let in but we got in anyway. She came out with some poo that she said was found under the stairwell in a girl's bedroom and said it was a sign that something was wrong with the girl - anxiety and being locked up. She sprayed it with something for semen, blood and something else and different parts turned up in highlighter red and pink. There was a car we were in outside on the hilly slope filled with trees and other rickety wooden houses. We noticed the men coming back so we quickly got out and in to the house before they did. Then we were down the bottom of the slope and an asian lady was panicking and told us a lilo had washed up with blood on it. We went down to the sea - it was an aqua grey murky colour and it was very misty. We got another lilo and I pushed myself slowly out in the low tide and looked through the window in the top. Through the window I could see a child's footsteps beside a man's footsteps and then suddenly a girl's face print in the sand. He had pushed her face into the sand and suffocated her. Then we were back in the house with the girls and they didn't know why we had been there the last few days but wanted to take us to their treat - B - for dinner. It looked like we had nothing on these men but as we were walking along a boardwalk escalator to leave the house they let slip out loud that the men touch them. The men knew that we knew and I filled with terror that they'd hurt us so us adults walked in silence for different reasons.

23/08
I was at Glen and Dom's leaving party in the park. There were lots of people sitting around and we were playing a drinking game. I was reading a story in which I had to choose one of two options each half sentence to make a crazy story. I couldn't get it right because I was too drunk and everyone was laughing at me.

22/08
I was having dinner with J on a tropical island with views out to sea. "1 Month" kept popping into my head.

21/08
I was on a tropical island with Jaimee and Linda and then I was in a room with Jaimee and she was setting up her business with meetings etc. She had fabric in saris and african patterns and was making dresses and underwear. Then she stood up and looked like a supermodel with a satin brown/grey mushroom coloured dress which was gathered in a plunging V and vintage lace triangle cut outs at the waist. It draped to the floor.

Linda and Jaimee and I were at the hospital and Chris was on the operating table. A really strong horrible feeling came over me and I told them I thought he had died. They wheeled him out on a bed but the doctor said he might come alive again one day.

20/08
I was smuggling a guy with brown hair on a train and we got off and went into a big wooden old house. I said he could stay there until i finished work and we'd go somewhere else. Then I saw J and hadn't seen him in ages and told him he looked really healthy after his holiday and gave him a hug. Then I realised I was wearing stockings, suspenders, little black skirt, white singlet and black top. I had Lucy from work's black stilletos on but for some reason I couldn't wear them because something was wrong with them even though it wasn't. So then I was wearing wine glasses on my feet but the base had broken off them and I was panicking because it was the first day at work and I didn't have any shoes that weren't broken. Then I realised my white singlet was covered in dirt but I was late so ran off down this long dark hallway and out into a theme park and under roller coasters in my wine glasses. I ran into a movie theatre which was my work. In my dream I was wondering what 'work' would be.

I was at a music festival - it felt like Canada but was sposed to be home. I wrote to J saying I was having a great time and missed him.

19/08
I was at a Russian duty free shop looking at souvenirs with mum and dad and gemma on the way home from somewhere. I was looking at a red ribbon thing and thought it looked asian. then on the wall I saw some cardboard push-out mobiles in Disney characters. There was a topless Daisy Duck but she had no nipples and there was one called Noel. And I thought I'd get it for Noel and then I looked at it harder and noticed it was a picture of Goofy.

18/08
I was climbing a mountain with Pam, Ben and Daisy. It was really misty and we had to take about 7 cable cars to get to the top. Ben and Daisy stayed at the third one and were cuddling on a park bench in the mist, but it was warm and lots of flowers in forest surrounds. Pam and I went up a couple more and stopped at some tearooms. After a cuppa we decided we would go all the way to the top and it became clearer and clearer. At the last stage we had to walk because it was too narrow a path to have cable cars on it. We got to the top and we could see the mist way down below at the bottom but we could see for miles.

I went to J's house in a car with my sister to meet his mum. My parents were there too. J was out chopping wood for the fire etc. Then we were inside this big old wooden house and J was doing the dusting in a maids outfit and two guys were whispering in my ear that he'd had breast implants.

others:

* I was at a music festival on an iceberg. It was storeys and storeys high with loads of people. There was a ride that flung people from the edge of the iceberg down to the water and back up again. I'm not sure how they held on but they weren't tied on. There was a helicopter flying people around on tours and inside the iceberg at sea level was a wooden walkway past a cave which a big pirate ship was docked in. the glass wall went below sea level so we could see the whole ship underneath the water.
* scout and brunswick water jump
* India + Anna D
* I was at home with wooden villas on the grass and walked past an old man and his cat who was so fluffy it wasn't able to bend it's legs so i picked it up rigor-mortis styles and carried it around. when i got home louisa and tors were in the kitchen and louisa was puffing up the curtains saying 'it was this fluffy' and i said 'are you talking about the cat? yeah! i saw it. i was so fluffy it looked like a scribble'
* I was sitting on a long drop going for a wee with my wetsuit around my ankles after surfing. in a field with a view out to sea in the distance. gibbard was standing there and megan s was sitting at my feet. it was sunny but cool. in the paddock in the distance a red convertible pulled up into an open sided garage and steven tyler gets out singing at the top of his lungs and asks me if i want to go out with him for the day.
* riding a White horse near rays/jamiesons - it had a rotten hoof
* i was at a horse show when a plane crashed in the middle of people riding around. then i saw a periscope pop up from a submarine and a warning went out that there were terrorists. i ran into a cave and down a winding stair case with dusky pink walls and elaborate wrought iron railings. i came to my tree house and walked into my kitchen, it was dark wooden floors and leadlight windows casting colourful rays of light around an otherwise shaded room. there was an old man standing in my kitchen and my parents were standing behind him not saying anything. i asked him how he got into my house and he said "through the crack in the window".
* Berlin with Linda and Paula
* I was eating at a posh restaurant with some people at the top of a skyscraper with views over the city. AAfter dinner we hopped into the rollercoaster which took us weaving in and out of skyscrapers home.
* Katie flat
* Glen with dog in bike pants at horse show
* Mike/Tom and Bevan - hugging
* Bush baby/lake animals/copter/tom buildings
* Tom and Rachel were sitting in red bus in my lounge. Although i was still with Tom, they had unfinished business and R wanted to talk to T so I left them to it and hopped out of the bus into the lounge with an open wall to the grass. Tara turns up with a band of cheerleaders and does a dance with costumes and Jeff holding me by the waist and i was running around walls like the matrix.
* In mum and dad's gulley grew wrought iron trees with big bright plastic flowers in reds and oranges and pinks and yellows.
* Rachel, Tom dave Italy, rally car
* Haunted house - fixing man's foot with Tom
* Fire house, Hayley K exhibition
* with j at music festival
* j stomach on couch inflamed